Lalalala. I had such a wonderful time last night. :)

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
I don't need any more sermons, I was looking for comfort. Lalalalala.
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

And they are going drinking tonight, have fun! =(

The title basically says it all

Maybe.
Better tell it to my face.

Despite the fact that it has been continuously one hard month, I can say that this past few days have been very helpful in lifting up my spirits.

Being a LOG during the Orsem: Viaje 2006 was awesome!!! I got that unexplainable satisfied feeling. It was hard work --- the long campus tours, the heat of the covered courts, the different duties assigned, the rain that almost ruined our lunch during the first day, the lost freshies, etc. BUT, it was all well worth it. AND, Trish and Chinx slept over at my house the first night, then at Chinx's the next night. I loveeeeeeeeeeeed it. I love them. :)
At the 2nd day, I feel in love with my block. Freshmen, goodluck!! I'm sure you'll all do great. First year is the best, i'm telling you. The light schedules, the long breaks meaning bonding time with block mates, the new experiences, and the overall excitement of being an Atenean freshie, nothing like it. :)

I can't believe it has been a year since I myself was a freshie. I can still remember my Orsem: Hau'oli so vividly!! Having Charles as a Tnt, meeting P5, getting threatened by how huge Ateneo was, but still so grateful that I passed my dream school, hehe.

I love being in Ateneo and I am so excited, but also nervous in becoming a sophomore. ACCOUNTING, boohoo, plus Stat and Eco and all the other subjects. :(( But I will survive, I know, because P5 is there. Yay! But then again, he is leaving, so what will happen to me? Rar.

I just got home from being with my block. We were in Luigi's place and it was soooo fun! Dancing, twister, truth or dare, and just being with them once more. Yayyyyyy! Great way to spend our last week of vacation. See you all when school starts on Monday... Hala! Haha

I miss him, super. Super!!

It's raining outside.
I miss him.
And as a result, I ended up tweaking my friendster profile.
Which I just realized can be kind of fun.
Hohum.

Hay nako!! What is the point of talking on the phone if the other person doesn't even TALK. Argh. I had so many things to say awhile ago and I hardly got a response!! What the. Tapos in the end ako pa yung "ayaw siyang kausapin". Eh malamang!!! I didn't have the energy to talk anymore.. after all that!! Grrrr. This is really getting too much!!! When we talk, talk!!

This is too much.................... =(

I didn't wake up on time for my 0700H PE 132-A Class, which is simply, freaking Tai-chi! (Don't blame yourself =p) My next class was still at 1230H and so I spent the time studying for my Literature quiz. I was seriously considering going to school early so that I could just study in the Rizal Library. Hayy.. The library! My ultimate favorite place to go to now.. I love it there! There is just something about the library in the Ateneo that gives me the energy to study. Love it!! And it pays off.. :) Hopefully my advisory marks wouldn't change by the end of the sem. I'm happy with those na.. But of course, A's would be better! =p Anyway, I just want to say.... YAY! I was scared! but I was saved once again. :)

Being with your highschool friends is just really different and refeshing. I was feeling down yesterday morning. I felt lost. I had all this school work to do and yet no matter how hard I seem to work it just never seems to be enough. But thank God for Jo texting and finally getting together! Made me realize how much I missed being with them. The great thing about being with them is that they accept! =)

The most important things are the hardest to say, because words diminish them. ~Stephen King

I've been waiting for so long for that moment. There were so many times in the past when I was already doubting...when I was so unsure. "Whatever my feelings are..." -- The line that really bothered me. So many feelings out there. How can I be sure that what I was hoping for and dreaming for was reality? I never assume. Sucks when you assume and in the end it isn't what you were hoping for. So I control myself. BUT. I do feel it. I DO. I just had to hear it! Explanations were given to me when I asked why. I understood.. Or at least (hates that word =.) I tried to understand. However, I think this is actually the best thing that could have happened between us. Before, I had to hear the words first before I would actually start feeling something. This time it was the other way around. My feelings were already overflowing. All that was needed was the articulation of THE feelings. Hayyy..

No reply though... (Sabi niya eh.. )

Although no need for that. Alam na eh! :) One thing irked me though. I didn't like how it all started. The whole "accident" thing. Scared me oh so much :(( I felt so weak and the tears were about to drop. The only thing that stopped me from crying was the sight.....

Promise me? Promise.

Hay nako. I am the stupidest. Tanga. Tonto. So what was the point? If I just allowed it to happen just like that. I would do anything right now to turn back time. I just have to be optimistic. Oh, please.

I had the best night of my life last Sunday. It was everything I dreamt of and sooo much more. I can't find the right words to describe what I felt that night. It was a bit unreal. It was perfect. I wanted the pictures to just describe the night; unfortunately the official pictures are still not out. And won't be out till the end of the week. So pictures will follow. A lot of people have been asking me about pictures. Just wait, I promise to post them in my Multiply the moment I get my hands on them. :)

I just want to thank all those who came: You truly completed my night. It wouldn't have been as special without you. And for those who were unable to attend, I'm just sad I wasn't able to see you and hang out! But I understand, I'm sure you all have good reasons. Eveything just worked out. The program ended early. Giving us a lot of time to partehhh! It was the best! Baila baila baila! :)

What made my night so special and what really made me happy was seeing my family happy. And I'm not only talking about my immediate family. But i'm talking about the whole clan! Haha. I was so grateful to have such a kick-ass family!

Most especially thanks to Him. The weather cooperated! Prayers work wonders.

PERFECT.

I got up early today because I had to catch the 0700H early mass with my Mother. I abhor getting up in the morning but once I get inside the chapel and hear the mass songs I just feel sooo good all over. I forget all my worries and everything just seems so much better. I feel the presence of God so much stronger when I enter the chapel. Feels like He is just right beside me giving me a hug and telling me not to worry because everything is all taken care of. He is our Shepherd and we are of course his flock. All we have to do is trust in him. Have faith.

Oh yeah... the homily earlier was really good too. There was this part wherein God was asking a follower of his.. "What is it that you want?" The follower answered saying there is only one thing that he wants.... and that is to be able to love Him more. I liked that. With the oh-so-many things we want in our daily lives we should just remember that all that we do is for Him. Remember that in all things, He should be glorified.

I hate myself. I keep on promising that I will be adjusting the time I go to bed. Since the summer started I've been sleeping really early -- EARLY IN THE MORNING -- then getting up at lunchtime -- SINCE THEY WAKE ME UP. I'd be gladly snoozing longer if only they'd allow me to hehe. So here I am again, I can't sleep! I was all ready to sleep right after dinner. But nooo.. I decide to just go online for awhile. FOR AWHILE? Haha... I've been on this thing for hours. I did nothing but change some of the settings in my multiply and research on some things like pilates and stuff. YA RIGHTTT. Like I'm going to actually do that. But but.. I want to!! Been wanting to for the longest time. Seems just like the perfect exercise for me. ;p All the stretching, which is just what the Dr. ordered for my back. And of course, it will do wonders for my still non-existent abs. Damn!

I've been feeling a bit sad lately. You see, I've been looking through people's Multiplies and I was able to view a lot of school pictures. Awwww... I can't believe I just let all that just pass by. That's it. No more going to Poveda everyday. No more hating it. I'm simply just missing it now.

It's Saturday night and I chose to stay home. I hope 2/3 of the 3barkada is having a flying time now! You guys suck! Hindi niyo na ako tinawagan.

Can I just say that I am starting to get a bit weirded out with... myself? What do I mean? Well, for the past few gimmiks, I seemed to get tired oh-so-easily. So strange!! At around 10 I would start debating if I should just go home already. It is not me to do so. My parents, however, are enjoying the "new" me. Let's see how long this will last... ;p The past few times I've been going out at night have just been blah. No other way to describe it. Yeah there were a few happy moments but they weren't that GREAT to actually make it memorable in any way. I had more fun just hanging out in Katip during the afternoons... Haha kahit na medyo wala talaga kaming ginawa. Masaya pa rin :) So there.. On my way to Dia's earlier I did not have high expectations. Buttttt!! YIPEEE:)
It was FUN!
I had a great time. I saw Dino again!! Haven't seen him in ages. Miss him miss him!! We were able to talk again and, GOSH, he is still the same HILARIOUS Dino I met 3 years ago. Awwww.. We started reminiscing about our PAST. My 16th birthday party. My 17th birthday party. 3-way phone calls with Pau. Etc. He is still the best! :D The best kumanta toh!! ;p Mga.. "I Don't Wanna Miss a Thing"? Haha!
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"May14? 1 month na!!!" -- Whoa!!! Ang bilis. GOOD TIMES. Can't wait till....=p Easy langgggg. Haha. Happy Anniv guys!!
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May isang cute ;p Hahaha! Wala toh. Basta.. Labo labo.. Ewan ko ba! Nakakainis lang kasi medyo malas yung mga pics... *Sigh* Pero. Cute! :)
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I can't wait to see the video. Medyo, star ba? Lol. SCARY. =S Pero cute siguro :)

"Everybody sit down and listen. Wanna tell you what you've been missing. Secret. Big big secret." --- Aww.. We all started singing this line awhile ago. This song.. reminds me of him. Uyyy.

This is the day which the Lord hath made; we will rejoice and be glad in it.
- - Psalm 118:24

There is nothing like getting phone calls, text messages, ym messages, and friendster messages (haha) from the people who love you. You know how it is when you only get to see and talk to the same people everyday? Well, today I was able to talk to a lot of my friends that I super miss! Thanks to all those who remembered (by order? haha ;p) :

Mom, James, Paolo, Enrique, Cel, Fabian, Berna, Ms. Trias, Ds, Mikmik, Sars, Jo, Pam, Chols, Rizzy, Carlo, Jerome, Ryan, Banzi, Shao, Ming, Tim, Anna, Dad, Seve, Rach, Eric, Dia, Lola, Jowelle, Steph N, Ms. Sollano, Ms. Smith, Tam, Robynne, Kai, Paopi, Mara, Chino, Tita Yolly&Tito Pong, Cris, Vinny, Mj, Martin C, Maffy, Marcy, Marlo, Jr T, Monique, Coco, Cara, Joseph B, Flo, Tala, Enzu, Kaye, Sophia, Aix, Paulo, Nek, Vincent, Meggie V, Rod, Dino, Miguel Abe, Bea, Gabs, Meggie A, Anne, Don, Jaron, Joe
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It's strange because I didn't do much celebrating today. A lot said.. "Lag yung celebration mo for 17 days!!" Hahaha! Truely! Gotta wait till the 29th till I can do my celebrating. =p I hope I see all my loved ones there. :) Btw, a lot are confused already about when my real birthday is! Oh no!! Haha! :D

I spent another day bumming around with the 3barkada. Haha. Not surprising anymore since we seem to always be together nowadays. I ain't complaining! I love being with them. Although today we were getting sooo bored. Argh! I hate it when that happens. We tried doing the usual things we do but we just weren't satisfied! We were still oh-so-bored. =/ At first Dee was there but she left just when I arrived in Katipunan. Haaay.. so naiwan kami dun. Hehe something funny happened though while we were seated. This "big" girl suddenly goes to the sink and starts barfing! Ang funny tingnan! =p We started calling her "baliw". At hindi masama ha! Kasi parang ganun talaga siya eh. She kept on walking around the restaurant parang nawawala na ewan. I got kind of scared of her pa nga eh. Then we bumped into the boy of one of our friends. We found out through him na wala na pala sila. Awww.. sobrang nakakaawa yung guy. While he was telling us what happened the song that was playing was One Last Cry pa. So parang naiiyak na kaming lahat!!! =`( We bumped to a lot of other people and that brightened up my day. :) However..
It was sooo damn hot !!!!
Even though we stayed in an air-conditioned place it was still freakin' hot!! Ibang level! Nyee hehe. After awhile we got to hang out with Maffy and Shao. Maffy told me something that made me laugh sooo hard! :D Hahaha! Grabe ha.. hindi ko alam na galit ka pala sakin last summer! Rar. Bakit kaya?;p

I can't believe it's been one year since Expert Guides. I had a blast last summer! All those times when we would even up not going to class but in a cab on our way to God-knows-where! =p Hehe. Happy times. If only I played my cards right, everything would have been so different now. Hmmm... or maybe it really wasn't meant to work out or anything. Maybe it was fate! Because if not, then this thing would have never started. Boy, time really does fly by so fast. I can't help but feel a bit scared of my future. A lot of people have been scaring me about my course in Ateneo. Rar. What if I can't handle it?... I'm not even good at Math!!! Shit. I need a tutor.