princesa

Taken by Surpise

Sun, 22 Mar 2009 10:53:25 GMT

Lalalala. I had such a wonderful time last night. :)

ARGH

Tue, 31 Oct 2006 12:21:49 GMT

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
I don't need any more sermons, I was looking for comfort. Lalalalala.
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

And they are going drinking tonight, have fun! =(

I hate my life

Sat, 14 Oct 2006 10:19:44 GMT

The title basically says it all

Maybe

Fri, 06 Oct 2006 14:09:25 GMT

Maybe.
Better tell it to my face.

What a week

Fri, 16 Jun 2006 18:15:45 GMT

Despite the fact that it has been continuously one hard month, I can say that this past few days have been very helpful in lifting up my spirits.

Being a LOG during the Orsem: Viaje 2006 was awesome!!! I got that unexplainable satisfied feeling. It was hard work --- the long campus tours, the heat of the covered courts, the different duties assigned, the rain that almost ruined our lunch during the first day, the lost freshies, etc. BUT, it was all well worth it. AND, Trish and Chinx slept over at my house the first night, then at Chinx's the next night. I loveeeeeeeeeeeed it. I love them. :)
At the 2nd day, I feel in love with my block. Freshmen, goodluck!! I'm sure you'll all do great. First year is the best, i'm telling you. The light schedules, the long breaks meaning bonding time with block mates, the new experiences, and the overall excitement of being an Atenean freshie, nothing like it. :)

I can't believe it has been a year since I myself was a freshie. I can still remember my Orsem: Hau'oli so vividly!! Having Charles as a Tnt, meeting P5, getting threatened by how huge Ateneo was, but still so grateful that I passed my dream school, hehe.

I love being in Ateneo and I am so excited, but also nervous in becoming a sophomore. ACCOUNTING, boohoo, plus Stat and Eco and all the other subjects. :(( But I will survive, I know, because P5 is there. Yay! But then again, he is leaving, so what will happen to me? Rar.

I just got home from being with my block. We were in Luigi's place and it was soooo fun! Dancing, twister, truth or dare, and just being with them once more. Yayyyyyy! Great way to spend our last week of vacation. See you all when school starts on Monday... Hala! Haha

I miss him, super. Super!!

Melancholic rain

Wed, 17 May 2006 05:54:00 GMT

It's raining outside.
I miss him.
And as a result, I ended up tweaking my friendster profile.
Which I just realized can be kind of fun.
Hohum.

Stupid phone

Thu, 27 Oct 2005 13:31:46 GMT

Hay nako!! What is the point of talking on the phone if the other person doesn't even TALK. Argh. I had so many things to say awhile ago and I hardly got a response!! What the. Tapos in the end ako pa yung "ayaw siyang kausapin". Eh malamang!!! I didn't have the energy to talk anymore.. after all that!! Grrrr. This is really getting too much!!! When we talk, talk!!

=(

Mon, 17 Oct 2005 15:59:13 GMT

This is too much.................... =(

What a Day!

Wed, 07 Sep 2005 13:30:37 GMT

I didn't wake up on time for my 0700H PE 132-A Class, which is simply, freaking Tai-chi! (Don't blame yourself =p) My next class was still at 1230H and so I spent the time studying for my Literature quiz. I was seriously considering going to school early so that I could just study in the Rizal Library. Hayy.. The library! My ultimate favorite place to go to now.. I love it there! There is just something about the library in the Ateneo that gives me the energy to study. Love it!! And it pays off.. :) Hopefully my advisory marks wouldn't change by the end of the sem. I'm happy with those na.. But of course, A's would be better! =p Anyway, I just want to say.... YAY! I was scared! but I was saved once again. :)

A night made for 6

Tue, 30 Aug 2005 16:13:46 GMT

Being with your highschool friends is just really different and refeshing. I was feeling down yesterday morning. I felt lost. I had all this school work to do and yet no matter how hard I seem to work it just never seems to be enough. But thank God for Jo texting and finally getting together! Made me realize how much I missed being with them. The great thing about being with them is that they accept! =)

4:30am moments - - Finally.. Hayyy..

Sun, 31 Jul 2005 07:03:41 GMT

The most important things are the hardest to say, because words diminish them. ~Stephen King

I've been waiting for so long for that moment. There were so many times in the past when I was already doubting...when I was so unsure. "Whatever my feelings are..." -- The line that really bothered me. So many feelings out there. How can I be sure that what I was hoping for and dreaming for was reality? I never assume. Sucks when you assume and in the end it isn't what you were hoping for. So I control myself. BUT. I do feel it. I DO. I just had to hear it! Explanations were given to me when I asked why. I understood.. Or at least (hates that word =.) I tried to understand. However, I think this is actually the best thing that could have happened between us. Before, I had to hear the words first before I would actually start feeling something. This time it was the other way around. My feelings were already overflowing. All that was needed was the articulation of THE feelings. Hayyy..

No reply though... (Sabi niya eh.. )

Although no need for that. Alam na eh! :) One thing irked me though. I didn't like how it all started. The whole "accident" thing. Scared me oh so much :(( I felt so weak and the tears were about to drop. The only thing that stopped me from crying was the sight.....

Promise me? Promise.

Stupid me

Sat, 09 Jul 2005 01:07:27 GMT

Hay nako. I am the stupidest. Tanga. Tonto. So what was the point? If I just allowed it to happen just like that. I would do anything right now to turn back time. I just have to be optimistic. Oh, please.

The 29th of May - - WOW :)

Wed, 01 Jun 2005 15:52:47 GMT

I had the best night of my life last Sunday. It was everything I dreamt of and sooo much more. I can't find the right words to describe what I felt that night. It was a bit unreal. It was perfect. I wanted the pictures to just describe the night; unfortunately the official pictures are still not out. And won't be out till the end of the week. So pictures will follow. A lot of people have been asking me about pictures. Just wait, I promise to post them in my Multiply the moment I get my hands on them. :)

I just want to thank all those who came: You truly completed my night. It wouldn't have been as special without you. And for those who were unable to attend, I'm just sad I wasn't able to see you and hang out! But I understand, I'm sure you all have good reasons. Eveything just worked out. The program ended early. Giving us a lot of time to partehhh! It was the best! Baila baila baila! :)

What made my night so special and what really made me happy was seeing my family happy. And I'm not only talking about my immediate family. But i'm talking about the whole clan! Haha. I was so grateful to have such a kick-ass family!

Most especially thanks to Him. The weather cooperated! Prayers work wonders.

PERFECT.

He who gives me strength

Tue, 24 May 2005 13:55:15 GMT

I got up early today because I had to catch the 0700H early mass with my Mother. I abhor getting up in the morning but once I get inside the chapel and hear the mass songs I just feel sooo good all over. I forget all my worries and everything just seems so much better. I feel the presence of God so much stronger when I enter the chapel. Feels like He is just right beside me giving me a hug and telling me not to worry because everything is all taken care of. He is our Shepherd and we are of course his flock. All we have to do is trust in him. Have faith.

Oh yeah... the homily earlier was really good too. There was this part wherein God was asking a follower of his.. "What is it that you want?" The follower answered saying there is only one thing that he wants.... and that is to be able to love Him more. I liked that. With the oh-so-many things we want in our daily lives we should just remember that all that we do is for Him. Remember that in all things, He should be glorified.

Sat, 21 May 2005 17:34:01 GMT

I hate myself. I keep on promising that I will be adjusting the time I go to bed. Since the summer started I've been sleeping really early -- EARLY IN THE MORNING -- then getting up at lunchtime -- SINCE THEY WAKE ME UP. I'd be gladly snoozing longer if only they'd allow me to hehe. So here I am again, I can't sleep! I was all ready to sleep right after dinner. But nooo.. I decide to just go online for awhile. FOR AWHILE? Haha... I've been on this thing for hours. I did nothing but change some of the settings in my multiply and research on some things like pilates and stuff. YA RIGHTTT. Like I'm going to actually do that. But but.. I want to!! Been wanting to for the longest time. Seems just like the perfect exercise for me. ;p All the stretching, which is just what the Dr. ordered for my back. And of course, it will do wonders for my still non-existent abs. Damn!

I've been feeling a bit sad lately. You see, I've been looking through people's Multiplies and I was able to view a lot of school pictures. Awwww... I can't believe I just let all that just pass by. That's it. No more going to Poveda everyday. No more hating it. I'm simply just missing it now.

It's Saturday night and I chose to stay home. I hope 2/3 of the 3barkada is having a flying time now! You guys suck! Hindi niyo na ako tinawagan.

SOO SCARED

Tue, 17 May 2005 10:46:11 GMT

I AM FRICKIN' SCARED. WORRIED. All i can do now is turn to Him. PRAY.

It's been a month?! Whoaaaa.

Sat, 14 May 2005 19:17:06 GMT

Can I just say that I am starting to get a bit weirded out with... myself? What do I mean? Well, for the past few ~~gimmiks~~, I seemed to get tired oh-so-easily. So strange!! At around 10 I would start debating if I should just go home already. It is not me to do so. My parents, however, are enjoying the "new" me. Let's see how long this will last... ;p The past few times I've been going out at night have just been blah. No other way to describe it. Yeah there were a few happy moments but they weren't that GREAT to actually make it memorable in any way. I had more fun just hanging out in Katip during the afternoons... Haha kahit na medyo wala talaga kaming ginawa. Masaya pa rin :) So there.. On my way to Dia's earlier I did not have high expectations. Buttttt!! YIPEEE:)
It was FUN!
I had a great time. I saw Dino again!! Haven't seen him in ages. Miss him miss him!! We were able to talk again and, GOSH, he is still the same HILARIOUS Dino I met 3 years ago. Awwww.. We started reminiscing about our PAST. My 16th birthday party. My 17th birthday party. 3-way phone calls with Pau. Etc. He is still the best! :D The best kumanta toh!! ;p Mga.. "I Don't Wanna Miss a Thing"? Haha!
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"May14? 1 month na!!!" -- Whoa!!! Ang bilis. GOOD TIMES. Can't wait till....=p Easy langgggg. Haha. Happy Anniv guys!!
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May isang cute ;p Hahaha! Wala toh. Basta.. Labo labo.. Ewan ko ba! Nakakainis lang kasi medyo malas yung mga pics... *Sigh* Pero. Cute! :)
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I can't wait to see the video. Medyo, star ba? Lol. SCARY. =S Pero cute siguro :)

"Everybody sit down and listen. Wanna tell you what you've been missing. Secret. Big big secret." --- Aww.. We all started singing this line awhile ago. This song.. reminds me of him. Uyyy.

Eighteen ;)

Thu, 12 May 2005 14:15:06 GMT

This is the day which the Lord hath made; we will rejoice and be glad in it.
- - Psalm 118:24

There is nothing like getting phone calls, text messages, ym messages, and friendster messages (haha) from the people who love you. You know how it is when you only get to see and talk to the same people everyday? Well, today I was able to talk to a lot of my friends that I super miss! Thanks to all those who remembered (by order? haha ;p) :

Mom, James, Paolo, Enrique, Cel, Fabian, Berna, Ms. Trias, Ds, Mikmik, Sars, Jo, Pam, Chols, Rizzy, Carlo, Jerome, Ryan, Banzi, Shao, Ming, Tim, Anna, Dad, Seve, Rach, Eric, Dia, Lola, Jowelle, Steph N, Ms. Sollano, Ms. Smith, Tam, Robynne, Kai, Paopi, Mara, Chino, Tita Yolly&Tito Pong, Cris, Vinny, Mj, Martin C, Maffy, Marcy, Marlo, Jr T, Monique, Coco, Cara, Joseph B, Flo, Tala, Enzu, Kaye, Sophia, Aix, Paulo, Nek, Vincent, Meggie V, Rod, Dino, Miguel Abe, Bea, Gabs, Meggie A, Anne, Don, Jaron, Joe

...I was happy that someone called early this morning. Really made me smile:). Missed his voice. =/ Was I expecting? Of course... But I did not want to raise my hopes up because it might have just led to disappointment. Happy happy!:)
...However I felt down when I thought someone got mad at me because of something that I really regret doing. I wasn't thinking eh!! Grar. Sorry. Thank you for the cake though. I was so surprised! Yumm! You're the best Babs ;p
...There were some people who I didn't expect would actually remember. One of them was Pam! Hehe. She made me remember our SFR days. She even called me Princess Smiley! Awww. Grade 6 memories.:D
...One mentioned that we had our share of disagreement and misunderstandings over the past year.. but he will still always be here for me. Gosh! Sooo understanding. :)
...I was able to talk to someone about my future school! Daming tips. Haha! Thanks thanks! I will definitely keep all those tips you shared to me in mind.
...I suddenly remembered that, thanks to certain people ;p, that I am either one of the ff: Naughty - - Haha a joke that started last summer and never seemed to get old!, Bruha - - Hindi lang ako noh!! ;p, Sexy - - Haha another joke!! Which I somehow like hearing ;p, Ma'am - - Uuuuyy! Cutee pa rin! Hehe, Pnb - - I disagree!!!, Almonds - - We are nuts Aix!! Hehe.
...My Lola was actually able to complete and send me an SMS. Haha! She actually texted! Whoa. Whatta lola!
...Sars made that cute thingey in LJ. Awwww. Mwah!:)
...Biglang sunud-sunod yung mga text ko na puro.. "Ma'am". Haha! Sooo cute.
...Someone said that thanks to me she has learned to be more disciplined. Wow!
...My old crush texted me! Yehes! Haha loko lang. Pero gulat talaga ako! Kilig? Dein!;p Uy. Haha
...Most of the people reminded me about getting old!!! RAR.
...Drink my night away daw!! Ehhh.. Didn't do that.
...I didn't receive some texts from people. Argh! Wonder what happened. Sooo.. sorry I was unable to reply.
...I was afraid that my close guy friend forgot!! I was feeling a bit sad. Pero biglang nagtext! Yayyy! "Better late than never". Oh sooo true!
...But I was even more sad because Nek didn't text yet. But she called!!!! YAYYY:) She said she wanted to be the last to greet me but her parents were making her go to bed already because they were leaving early tomorrow. Awwww. Miss you!! Love you Nek. :)
...Pahabol! I was so disappointed din when my ex (uyyy =p) didn't even text me!!! Sobrang rar!! =( Pero biglang he messaged me and said that he was sick the whole day yesterday at wala siyang credits (what's new?) haha. kaya he wasn't able to text. oh well. =)))

It's strange because I didn't do much celebrating today. A lot said.. "Lag yung celebration mo for 17 days!!" Hahaha! Truely! Gotta wait till the 29th till I can do my celebrating. =p I hope I see all my loved ones there. :) Btw, a lot are confused already about when my real birthday is! Oh no!! Haha! :D

The Keys to My Heart

Tue, 10 May 2005 05:14:52 GMT

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Hmm. But how come I always seem to get the "emotional, moody, and difficult to please" kind of guys? Is there something in me that attracts them? Rar.

Oh yet another day..

Mon, 09 May 2005 12:29:35 GMT

I spent another day bumming around with the 3barkada. Haha. Not surprising anymore since we seem to always be together nowadays. I ain't complaining! I love being with them. Although today we were getting sooo bored. Argh! I hate it when that happens. We tried doing the usual things we do but we just weren't satisfied! We were still oh-so-bored. =/ At first Dee was there but she left just when I arrived in Katipunan. Haaay.. so naiwan kami dun. Hehe something funny happened though while we were seated. This "big" girl suddenly goes to the sink and starts barfing! Ang funny tingnan! =p We started calling her "baliw". At hindi masama ha! Kasi parang ganun talaga siya eh. She kept on walking around the restaurant parang nawawala na ewan. I got kind of scared of her pa nga eh. Then we bumped into the boy of one of our friends. We found out through him na wala na pala sila. Awww.. sobrang nakakaawa yung guy. While he was telling us what happened the song that was playing was One Last Cry pa. So parang naiiyak na kaming lahat!!! =`( We bumped to a lot of other people and that brightened up my day. :) However..
It was sooo damn hot !!!!
Even though we stayed in an air-conditioned place it was still freakin' hot!! Ibang level! Nyee hehe. After awhile we got to hang out with Maffy and Shao. Maffy told me something that made me laugh sooo hard! :D Hahaha! Grabe ha.. hindi ko alam na galit ka pala sakin last summer! Rar. Bakit kaya?;p

I can't believe it's been one year since Expert Guides. I had a blast last summer! All those times when we would even up not going to class but in a cab on our way to God-knows-where! =p Hehe. Happy times. If only I played my cards right, everything would have been so different now. Hmmm... or maybe it really wasn't meant to work out or anything. Maybe it was fate! Because if not, then ~~this thing~~ would have never started. Boy, time really does fly by so fast. I can't help but feel a bit ~~scared~~ of my future. A lot of people have been scaring me about my course in Ateneo. Rar. What if I can't handle it?... I'm not even good at Math!!! Shit. I need a tutor.

Mother's Day!

Sun, 08 May 2005 13:49:20 GMT

Happy Mother's Day to all the Moms out there.. especially to my very own Mother dearest . :)

My Mother rocks!! =p Yeah we had our share of fights in the past but all those fights just strengthened our relationship. I love her to bits! Hmmm.. My Mom never made such a big thing out of this whole "Mother's day" thing. She said she'd rather I be an obedient daughter the whole year than being extra nice for one day just for the sake of it all. That's why I never made it a point to get her anything during Mother's day. However, thanks to a certain person, I was able to give her something last night -- flowers. :) She was sooo surprised when she entered my room early this morning and I gave her the flowers. Haha. It's soo not me kasi. But I can tell she liked it. So I want to say thank you to that very generous person . You know who you are! Hehe =p Sorry if medyo napilitin mo lang ibigay sakin ha. Sabi mo kasi you had extra flowers. Ang kapal ko ba when I asked for it? =S Sorry nalang if ever. Hehe.

Last night
We had another get-together in Jo's house last night. The 3barkada (hihi) planned it when we met up in Eastwood early this week. I was excited because finally Anna was going to join us!! Last time I saw her was in Rina's party and I super kaduper missed her! We used to be together everyday but since she moved we haven't been hanging out as much. Always soo busy kasi. Rar! Sorreh. Haha! Anyway we got to Jo's early. Nothing out of the norm happened. The usual people started arriving. Yipee! I was happy to see all of them again! Hehe. But a lot of the usual were missing too!! Ayyy.. sayang. May mga plans pa naman kami ni Marcy! ;p Hahaha! There were also some "new" people who joined us. Fun!!! Dapat sama uli next time ha!
Hmm... weird but I got tired early. Sooo Dee, Me, Enrique, and Vinny left and headed to Yellow Cab to grab a bite! Haha. An unusual ending to what seemed like a very usual night. Things are changing....

"3"

Yay!! Anna's there. :)

Good girls ;)

Wed, 04 May 2005 14:16:39 GMT

I had a great time today with the Good girls. I met up with Marcy and Jo and we just spent the afternoon talking. I love those two! Promise, we will stick together .

Tue, 03 May 2005 14:22:50 GMT

Today was a very unproductive day for me because I was only able to drop off 5 invitations today. Oh gosh! =S I woke up late kasi!!! I think I will have to mail the other invitations. I'm getting tired of going around the city. Sobrang traffic mehn! Haha. At around 4pm I headed off to Shang where I met Enrique. We planned to watch a movie. We ended up watching The Interpreter. I was against watching it at first because I thought it was some sort of scary film that had to do with dead people, ghosts, etc. But it was the only film that was going to show at that time so I had no choice. Hmmm. The movie was not bad! In fact I enjoyed it. Nicole Kidman and Sean Penn are such good actors! I only noticed now. The movie was (thank God) not about ghosts at all! Btw, he was so funny when I gave him the invitation. Ayaw niyang tingnan yung list ng 18 Roses. Baka daw maasar siya!! Labo!! Haha. Hindi talaga niya tiningnan the whoooole time. Tapos may sinabi pa siyang "Sobrang bumaba na yung value ng cellphone mo." At first I took what he said literally.. so I started explaining that that's really the case when it comes to Samsung phones. Then he gave me this look that made me realize what he meant! Rar. Haha. I would have changed it noh! But if I did then it would have been gone forever. I wouldn't want that now... or do i? Hmmm.

I'm a bit bummed out. Haaayyy.. Very confused. Signs? Oh please oh please oh please..!

Mon, 02 May 2005 12:23:53 GMT

I spent most of my day in the car with my Mother. We were dropping my debut invitations at people's houses. Our first stop was all the way in Tandang Sora and we ended at around 6pm in New Manila. Oh gosh. Tiring!!! But fun.. I got to see a lot of my friend's houses. It's funny how sometimes you have this image of how the house of a certain friend of yours looks like.. and it ends up being the total opposite. =p~ Wala langggg hehe. I'm going to be seeing more houses this coming week since that will be all that I'll be doing! Oh yeahhh. Oh yah.. Thanks to Mike and Enzu who picked it up from my house. So nice. Bait bait! Nakakahiya pero thanks ha.. I appreciate it. :)

One of the houses I went to was Coco's. Or should I be referring to her as Nicole now? Haha. No. Coco parin! Anyway, gosh.. going back there to her place brought back oh-so-many wonderful memories. I miss her so much and I miss all the fun times we had before! We would have countless bonding (the word! haha) sessions in her room... the annual halloween get-together at her place.. basta.. ang dami dami!! I remember seeing my crush (uuuy) who eventually became my date (uuy) and I was so excited! Haha. Grabe. We would even casually "follow him around". KADIRI. Coco kasi eh. ;p Even my Mother started talking about some of her "fond" memories of that place. Memories of her picking me up late at night and at the process getting lost in that huge village of their's.

Oh yah... sobrang badtrip! Cause my friends are planning to go to Batangas next week. I'm now allowed to go in out-of-town trips with my friends.. BUT.. I wasn't allowed for this one. Rar. My mom said it's because she doesn't want anything to happen to me before the 29th. After nalang daw at pwede na ako magwala.. Haha! And I thought.. AYOKO NA UMITIM NOH. Tama na toh...haha. Pero badtrip!!! I've been wanting to go out with them for the longest timeeeeee. Haay.. Well.. hope they have fun!

I can't seem to pinpoint exactly how I am feeling today. Tired? Yup.. but that's just physically. Everything else around me and about me is just all a blur right now. Including..

JUST a Dream

Sun, 01 May 2005 16:57:58 GMT

I had this dream two nights ago that was very interesting. When I woke up, I still vividly remembered the details of the dream. However, like what normally happens, those details are eventually forgotten and all that is left are bits and pieces of the dream. They say you are suppose to write down the events of your dream the moment you wake up. I intended to do that but I ended up just replaying the interesting moments of my dream in my head over and over again. =p Hmmm. Haha. Basically it was really cool because I was in Peru for some weird reason. Astig sobra!! I love traveling and to actually be in Peru would have been wonderful. So anyway I was there and I was talking to someone on the cellphone. Then biglang naging sad ako. Why? Argh eh kasi naman. Bigla ba naman niyang sinabi na parang ayaw na niya blah blah. Lul mo! Haha. Pero sad yun sobra. Napraning ako ng todo when I woke up. Kaya I kept on thinking about it and replaying the dream because I wanted to find out what caused it. So that I could keep in mind that I should avoid whatever it was that caused it. ;p I hated the feeling! Parang nangyari talaga. Tapos I have no way of talking to him so paano kaya kung biglang totoo pala yun eh.. hindi pala dream!!! =/ Oh no oh no. But it was it was a dream. Kasi hindi niya magagawa yun! Hmm. Well, that's what I think. Dapat lang noh!

I've finally started fixing my room. Every year I seem to accumulate more and more paper work! Ayoko na.. so I've been throwing them out. All those IWs blah. Haha. But I did keep a lot of them too. There are some that are just too memorable to throw out.

I need an Ipod! I need a pink rug for my room! I need abs! (Been wanting that since first year =p) I need to see..... hehe. Still kind of afraid that my dream will turn into reality. Hmphhh.